Thursday, June 21, 2012

BVM&S, MRCVS

My first memory that I can recall is sitting in my high chair in our kitchen watching one of our dogs die. I must have been really young, to be in a high chair, but I think I can remember being confused, as if I wasn't sure why the dog was acting the way it was, and why the dogs breathing sounded so odd. But I think I remember wanting to do something about it, I could tell something was wrong, and from my high chair there was nothing I could do - not that I would have known how anyway.

This sounds a bit morbid, and perhaps in hindsight I'm projecting too much of what I think I should have been feeling onto the memory, and perhaps my brain has taken some artistic license in recreating the memory, but it makes my point, so I'm going to go with it: I have wanted to be a veterinarian for as long as I can remember, and in fact I don't remember making a choice to be a vet, or having to think about what I wanted to be. There were of course short phases of wanting to be a veterinarian/broadway star or a veterinarian/wildlife photographer or a veterinarian/pop singer, but my day job was always going to be veterinarian. It wasn't really a choice anyway, or even something I wanted. It was much more than that. This all sounds incredibly cheesy, but I can't even really explain it -- being a vet was just what I was going to do, and that was that, period.

So this is why I am so so so happy to tell you all, that I have passed not only the NAVLE exam which will allow me to work in the USA if/when I return, but I passed my final exams as well, and on the 30th of June I will be graduating from the University of Edinburgh with my class as a veterinarian. The best part is, my final year group passed as well, and I'm so proud to be graduating with Emma, Bobby and Graham, they have helped me through this past year with their support and endless hilarity, and have become some of my best friends in the process. My housemate, Anik, also passed, which is also awesome! We got the news at the same time, so we celebrated in the garden with some bubbly! Anik has been there for me for pretty much all of the last 4 years, and I couldn't have gotten through it without her to stress out with and party with.

Getting to this point has been a long, difficult and often frustrating process, especially since I've been working towards this for the last two decades and then some, and it's pretty much all I've ever known! But even though I struggled at times, and had the occasional thought of "why am I doing this to myself?!" it was so so worth it. And I know there will be many more days of struggle and insecurity --  I am anticipating my first day on the job to be absolutely terrifying -- I still cannot imagine doing anything else!

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On a completely unrelated note, but another reason why my life is pretty much awesome right now, Andrew asked me to marry him at the restaurant where we first met, and I (obviously) said yes!

Life is good!

(Dr.) Tara Bergin BVMS, MRCVS

Sunday, May 6, 2012

Time flies!

Wow! This year certainly flew by! I'm sorry for not updating at all, but I've been so busy this year! Let me update you now with some highlights from throughout the year.

I began my final year rotations on ICU nights, which was actually a fantastic way to start the year. In our tired state our group saw each other at our worst, and survived the test, and actually I think this was one of the best weeks. Sure it was tiring, but our group really bonded.

ICU days quickly followed, and although there wasn't a huge amount going on, we had a lot of tutorials that were really useful (and I still remember now, which is always a good sign!). Despite our having to fight to stay awake during them (going straight from night shifts to day shifts is exhausting!), we really enjoyed the week.

And, I just realised I can't possibly go through every single rotation, but suffice it to say that this year has been amazing. I even really enjoyed working in the equine and farm animal hospitals, and got to see some fun cases.

My favourite week was probably Small Animal Internal Medicine. I loved that week because it was so very relevant to my future career, and I learned a ton, and got to the point where I actually feel like I knew what I was doing.

I also loved Farm Practice (I know, who would have thought I'd have ever said that?!) because it was something so completely different than anything I'd done before. I got to go out to farms with the other students and the farm vets, and do surgeries out in the field. Farm medicine seems a lot more straightforward to me. Whereas in small animal you often rely on countless tests and diagnostics to determine a course of action, on farm you have to go with your instincts and just do what's necessary. So I enjoyed it because of that aspect. I still don't think I particularly want to be a farm vet (I don't really like being dirty and smelling like cows), but I also feel like I am capable of being one, which is good, as I suppose given limited job prospects around this area I might have to take a mixed animal job!

Anyway, here are some pictures from my Final Year!
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3-layer Red Velvet cake with Raspberry filling and dark chocolate frosting! (Recipe Here)
 I know, weird that I start off with cake, but at R(D)SVS there is a final year tradition called 'Cake Friday' on which every Friday someone in each rotation group makes cake or cookies or something else yummy. This was both delicious and incredibly horrible for my waistline, and I am (I can't believe I'm saying this) looking forward to NOT having cake thrust in front of my face every week. However, during this year I have contributed to many a Cake Friday, and have made some pretty awesome cakes, so I've included a few of my favourites!
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 Another successful Cake Friday! Vanilla sponge cake with Strawberry jam and Vanilla bean icing!
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A cute chinchilla I saw during our week on Exotics! I loved this week, mostly because some of my favourite staff members are on this week. I was really looking forward to working with lots of exotic species. Sadly, we only really saw rabbits and this one chinchilla, but it was still a fun week. Truthfully, it was probably more relevant to small animal practice than if we had seen lots of other crazy lizards and things because rabbits in gut stasis is probably one of the more common thing you'll see in practice, as rabbit's seem to be rather poorly designed and things go wrong rather often (much like with horses and colic!)
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 A cute foal during our week on the Equine hospital! Despite not really loving horses so much, I actually really enjoyed the equine hospital as well. It was very different to the small animal hospital, and I felt like we didn't get to do quite as much in relation to communicating with clients and doing full physical exams and things, I did learn a lot about how to handle the common problems I would see if I were to ever get called out to a horse, and I actually feel like I could pretty confidently deal with most run-of-the-mill problems horses get like simple colic and lameness issues.
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 A (less yummy) but more creative Cake Friday creation. Chocolate and Vanilla cupcakes with marshmallow sheep and horses! This took a LONG time, let me tell you, and I think I prefer cake on  the whole because I'm not so into frosting, but I was pretty impressed with my marshmallow animal skills.
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 My awesome amazing group - The A Team - during our week on Equine Hospital
L-R: Graham, Me, Emma, Bobby
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 Possibly my best Cake Friday cake. It didn't really look as nice as the others, but it was the best cheesecake I've ever had, and I think I converted a few non-cheesecake lovers as well. I may have made it three times (it was just that good!)...
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Sadly I couldn't take many pictures this year of animals and our activities during uni (client confidentiality and all), but we definitely had a blast. Sure, at times it's nerve-wracking being asked questions you really don't know the answer to, and you feel like you have to study ALL the time, it has been remarkably stress-free. I figure, this is what vet school was all about; this is the year that I've worked up to since I was a little girl, and what's the point of doing it if you're going to worry and stress about it? So I just tried to have as much fun as possible, and (maybe if I'm lucky) pick up some information on the way! Fortunately the rest of my group thought much the same way, and I think that's why we got along so well, and why we were nominated for "Best Rotation Group" by the staff (we lost out to some rugby boys, boo! but we know we were better than them anyway!). I have enjoyed working with my group so much, they have become some of my best friends here in Edinburgh.

Sadly, The A Team was split up in the last rotation because of the numbers involved, but fortunately Graham and I still ended up in the same group for the last 3 weeks. Our new group was really fun too, and I enjoyed getting to know some new people better, whom, frankly, I wish I had gotten to know earlier. Hopefully we'll all keep in touch when this is all over.

Tip for any future final year vet students: ENJOY YOUR FINAL YEAR. Seriously. This is the time you've been waiting for, so what's the point in going through it constantly stressed out! I will tell you now that you will know more than you think you know, just by going and paying attention. For example: at the Dick Vet we had a short exam every month after each rotation block, and I did not study for any of them. Not one. Instead, I payed attention during the week. I asked questions and I discussed cases and treatments with my group, and if we didn't know the answer, we went home and looked it up. And I consistently passed every single one of them. So don't sweat it. Final year is awesome!

Another tip: LOVE YOUR ROTATION GROUP! If you can't stand them, switch, before it's too late. I cannot tell you how important it is for you to get along. Clinicians see when you don't get along, and it will make your year much less fun if you're constantly wanting to punch one of your team members in the face.

Last tip, I promise: IT IS NOT A COMPETITION! Especially not with your final year group. You are there to support one another, and the better you work to make sure everyone gets a shot at doing everything, the more fun your year will be. Trust me, you will make no friends if you constantly hog the good cases, and it will be equally crappy if you can't step up and say "hey, I've never done this before, can I try?" There is ample time to try everything, usually more than once, and in the end no one cares that you got to place 8 catheters during your week on SA practice. They will care that you worked well with others.

Anyway, enough of that. So aside from studying and endless cakes, Andrew and I also had tons of fun outside of uni. Here are some pictures to highlight some of the fun things we did!
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Andrew and I moved! We have an adorable house, in a nice neighbourhood, with a huge, beautiful back garden! :)
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We also got a new kitten at the same time! Maisie is so cute! She's not nearly that small anymore, but she's still adorable (although Tsuki doesn't like her much!). Funny story: we were told she was a boy and had named her Jasper (we didn't really think to double check), but as she got slightly bigger we thought, hang on, those parts don't look boy-like. So when I took her for her first vet appointment I brought it up and the vet confirmed our suspicions. I'm really glad I spoke up, because I'm pretty sure it would have been embarrassing if the vet thought I couldn't sex a cat as a final year!
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 Ok, I lied, more cake. But I didn't make this one. For my birthday, Andrew got me an ADORABLE cake. So cute! I almost felt bad eating it, but eat it I did!
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Thanksgiving was the day after my birthday, and was amazing, especially because we hosted it in our new house! I'm definitely going to keep up this American tradition. My future children may grow up in the UK, but they will learn to love Thanksgiving! :P Sadly I didn't manage to take any pictures this year (wtf?). I think I got caught up in the craziness of trying to make a full Thanksgiving dinner without a day off for it and forgot. I'll do better next year, I promise.
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Ok, so there's more cake. For my birthday present, Andrew got us a cookie and cupcake decorating class! It was in December, so it was Christmas themed, and it was very yummy.
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The results of our decorating. Skillz.
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 We got a full sized (but a bit scraggly) Christmas tree this year. I feel like a real person now! After seeing the tree that Andrew's friends Fi and James got, which was bigger, fuller AND cheaper, I think we will do better next year. It still looked and smelled great, and I can't wait to celebrate more Christmases in our house!
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 Andrew, Maisie and Me! Tsuki was far too angry to be picked up in such proximity to the little cat.
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We had a lovely Christmas dinner at Andrew's parents' house. It was very relaxed and fun, and we played board games and just sat around chatting. It was great! They are like my second family :)
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After Christmas, Andrew and I took a trip to Dunnottar Castle, which is beautiful and majestic! This is why I love Scotland! The castle was home to one of the most powerful families in Scotland, the Earls Marischal from the 14th century on and housed the Honours of Scotland (the crown jewels) for awhile.
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 At our Staff-Student Dinner we had a lot of fun chatting to staff members and hanging out and getting dressed up. Here's my awesome group again!
Poon and me!

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Every year the Final Year puts on a 'Final Year Revue' which celebrates (and makes fun of) our experiences during the year. It was a lot of fun, but mostly because I got to hang out with my friends and forget about studying for an evening!
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For one glorious week back in March we had 20 degree (C) weather and sunshine, and Anik and I spent most of it lying out in the garden soaking up the vitamin D. Now it is May and snowing. I miss that week...
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During that beautiful week of sun, we planned a BBQ with some of my and Andrew's friends. Sadly, it became cloudy and cold as soon as it started. Oh well! It was still fun to hang out and the conservatory was pleasantly warm.
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For Margaret's (Andrew's mum) birthday, we surprised her with dinner in St. Andrews and a cheeky monkey cake with a firecracker on top!
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On my week off, in between studying I decided to hike up the nearest Pentland hill. Our house is somewhere just beyond the left side of the picture.
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Poon and I had to take a trip down to London to take the NAVLE (North American Veterinary License Examination), which is a SIX HOUR test of all multiple choice. Needless to say, it was long, and tedious, but I think it went okay. Afterward we celebrated by walking to Chinatown and eating dumplings before catching our train home.
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This is what Maisie looks like now, she's almost a normal sized kitteh! She is always getting into trouble, and harassing Tsuki, and trying to eat our feet in the middle of the night, but she's adorable, really.
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Anyway, our 3 weeks of electives start tomorrow, and then are exams! I've signed up for oncology, which should be really interesting, as I'll get to see a lot of things I probably wont see in practice, and hopefully it will give me a good background for diagnosing cancer in my own patients.

After that it's some intense studying before finals, and then exams! I cannot tell you how nervous I am for these. I know that I know enough to be a good vet, it's just so difficult when you're put on the spot to be coherent and remember every little detail! I just need to keep reminding myself to stay calm. I can do this!